So, Japan.
Japan, Japan, Japan.
Nihon.
Anime. Manga. Godzilla. Ramen and sushi.
Konnichiwa!
My Dad was stationed in Japan while he was in the Air Force. Then I watched Sailor Moon. Now my goal is to go to Japan.
I can’t throw something in this room without it hitting something that relates to my interest in Japan, whether it’s anime or manga, CDs or merchandise for Japanese rock bands, or something having to do with video gaming. You can’t go through my pantry without finding Japanese or other southeast Asian food items, more than just soy sauce, rice and ramen, as I also have rice vinegar and powdered coconut milk.
My Japanese lessons are paused at the moment. To some extent, I burned myself out after going a whole month straight. I got bored, I changed my nightly priorities, and while I tell myself I should or that I need to start again, I can’t seem to do it.
My Japanese friend told me he loved me, which lifted my spirits for only about three days. I should have been ecstatic, I should have felt some kind of accomplishment, like things were deepening between us. I felt lonelier than before, because it didn’t come with an increase in messages from him, or plans to meet, or even call. And the Facebook account he uses to chat with me has a friend listed, and it’s a woman who isn’t me, but I can’t bring myself to address that fact because I’ll come off as jealous (which I actually feel is justified, since I’m not connected as a friend at all). So in my realization that I had options, it didn’t take me long to find something that was possibly better.
So there was a guy who could actually carry a conversation, which put him ahead of the rest of the guys on the dating site. He was Asian, with longer hair, and he lived in the Philippines. And he likes me. He likes that I’m not skinny. And not only does he think I’d be a good mother, he also believes I’d be a good wife.
My first thought, of course, was to do a Google search and see if fat people get sold on the black market. Alas, they do, there’s a market for fat, not necessarily the people. But the more time I spend talking to him, the more he seems to have a genuine interest in me as a person, and that he’s a real person as well.
So now my thoughts are that I should focus on going to the Philippines.
I don’t even know anything about the Philippines.
Well, they’re an island nation, another archipelago like Japan. And they have a tropical climate, which is cruel and tempting right now as my area is easing out of winter but still flirting with snow and temperatures dipping just below freezing. So I could choose to live somewhere that never has snow, and I just have to deal with a lot of rain for about half of the year? Maybe I’ll just visit family for the holidays so I can get my requirement for snow at Christmastime, but otherwise I’m ready to leave it behind.
He says his English isn’t that good, but my Japanese isn’t even conversational, and my Spanish is only good for figuring out the locations of the library, some cheese, and my cat. Okay, I say, rubbing my hands together as I figure out what his first language might be. So the primary language of the Philippines is, of course, Filipino or Tagalog, and from what I understand, the difference between Filipino and Tagalog is similar to differences between regional dialects of most languages. Okay, I say, rubbing my hands together as I pull up Duolingo to see what languages they offer, only to see they don’t offer it yet. They have Klingon… but I can’t learn Tagalog. All right, why not? Some more research on Tagalog, I discover its usage is mainly just the Philippines, so it’s about as useful to me here as Klingon would be. At least for an English-speaker, it’s far easier to learn than Japanese, and the difficulty rating actually decreases for knowing Spanish as some of the words are derived from Spanish. It’s a good thing I know how to ask where the bathroom is, after all!
All this research, you would think I got hungry at some point, and I did. Searching for Filipino restaurants, however, I find that I either need to make a road trip out of it, or I need to hop in my time machine. Yeah, it seems there was a Filipino restaurant in my area, but it opened after I moved to New Jersey, and it closed before I even had a chance to visit. Well, I can cook, so I also looked up a list of dishes that are typical fare. A lot of things sounded good, some things seemed questionable to me because they were fried (I’m trying to eat a little healthier… trying to…), but some things sounded like they might be made in large quantities when they’re normally prepared. Not knowing where to begin, I skipped to dessert. Halo-halo sounds amazing, by the way, like I need it in my mouth! It’s not the first time I’ve heard of it, as some of the things in one of the local Asian grocery stores say, “perfect for halo-halo,” leaving me to wonder, “what is halo-halo?” I’m just going to say, its something sweet and fruity, and chilled and sounds refreshing and delightful. It might be the first Filipino food thing I make for myself, if I can get all or most of the necessary ingredients. When I mentioned to him about my quest for Filipino food, he said, “I’ll cook for you.” But.. but… I can cook…
So yeah, now I’m considering going halfway around the world for a guy. No, literally, this time it’s exactly halfway around the world, as the Philippines are 12 hours ahead of the Eastern Standard time zone. Thankfully he’s out of the country for work, which changes the time difference. It also changes my fear, that maybe he’s involved in a different kind of human trafficking.
What? I’m too happy. I have to rule out the possibilities that something isn’t quite right. I mean, he’s too pretty… okay, maybe not too, too pretty, but looking at him reminds me that I have had crushes on Han from the Fast And Furious movies, Apolo Ohno while he had longer hair, and I even like watching Mummy-D in the video for the song he performs with Suga Shikao. Even looking at pictures of him with shorter hair, he just seems like a fun person. Oh, yeah, I should add that we’re friends on Facebook. This is more of what I wanted, so far it feels right, so I just want to make sure it’s for real.
So why not the Philippines? Why don’t I go where I’ll be happy? After all, I may have just found what will make me happy.